Why

How do you explain to someone how you are feeling without revealing the inner most parts of your soul? Without leaving yourself open to judgement and ridicule? There is so much going on in my head, in my heart and all of it a way for someone to hurt me. Why do I continue to dream the most impossible dream? And how could someone like him want someone like me? What do I have going for me that could interest anyone? Perhaps it is my mother's fault for giving me hope in the first place. Or maybe I can blame the movies for making love seem like an attainable thing. Sometimes it feels like I'd be better off if I hid away from the world where I could cause no more harm to others. How can I bring joy when I feel like I'm dying inside? I'm an idiot, a loser, a freak, a no one. I am nothing and I just don't know how to go on anymore.